follow the wind

Careful attention is a sign of love.it is not futile or casual in the least. Create something longlasting.Tangible results means narrowing things down and making space for the unseen. trust in the divine plan and follow the white rabbit. I got Joel's card from the drippalator. I can see putting a flier for traveling treasures there soon. He lives by the school,plays at open mics and teaches classes. I saw the drive and purpose he put into healing.i have come full circle and risen again in the east, when i gave everything for love i gained it all and more.

i am powerful and own it. i am awake and aware.  I am able to respond in a beautiful way. I am always transforming for the better. My gifts bring me and those around me joy. pranayama and asana are your container. its all flowing here now. i trust i will not be cut off from The Source. The fountain is in me, and I am a cup. joy and love is a choice made when challenged. what would my own red tent be? cover, comfort,  the open spacetime.. expand and contract.make it known. early to bed early to rise breakfast greens snacks decorations music walks. 3 sets of 8 hours.  whadya know my moon started and full moon leo.

acceptance leads to ascension

i felt like poo when i got up but chose to feel better. open hearts love serve and remember. thoughts and feelings are illusions and senses are doorways to meet people on the bridge. the only thing i know is i am here having a human experience  for a reason and why not a good one?
john brandy and luna had us over.we got water there. their place is so different now that it's all theirs.lots of antiques and decorations and a new camper. nadia watched Alf for the first time. she read to Luna. brandy paid me and apologized for the delay.

The magnetic pull of the glowing moon calls the ocean waves on. tides drive the mercy ocean, the earth womb. though so far away it still touches us. we are visiting guests, to give birth again and again. the guide out of darkness if you surrender, 3 days a month. to create beauty accept embrace with joy..body mind soul. Remember the mountain girl in the city, open new curious now an awake mother at home. observe how the enviorment shapes you, bless it. make a bubble and float with the current..
 tie spirituality activism journalism info knowledge connections and change fear into love.  connecting and breaking apart is Allah in my life. It is a cycle and process unfolding I create.  let love flow from my fountain, there is enough to fill us all. thought matters not. each soul will be reached and touched. heal yourself,listen  the earth is fertile with life, and open for seeds to sprout. the butterfly heart has two wings, hope and fear, which light a fire in you to travel deeper within. The hidden becomes manifest and the roots nourish all.

butterfly soul

nonattachment not detachment.. work hard play hard make it beautiful make it yours. the female is the temple that gives shape and form to spirit. so take hold of that gift.agree to the quest. always opening to what's new next. we know it is temporary breif fragile and everything.the burning  love and light makes you feel like there's no where else to be  the young caterpillar fears the end, when the butterfly begins. . migration following subtle rhythm. pollination. blooms later
..my understanding and knowledge while growing is so flawed and incomplete. and i am reminded of this ofteen. for that i am grateful.it is so vastly greater than I.  submit surrender trust this Body mind soul 3, the storytelling ant on the persian rug. at times a flowing  robe or halo shows us becoming butterflies now.
awareness of the self and responsibility for creation can and will give you joy and sorrow.aware is what you wear, the mask that does magic.  heal self on this journey of sun and rain make the rainbow, shine in hidden places, balance is the mode of travel, learn, change, growth, exploration, creation. of past present and future, awake and asleep, with the self and self as other. look at the illusion and smile and laugh and sing to change it. turn lead into gold, the whole reason for the scales is equalizing.

potential

noon to 2. 24 hours where is horus? infinity of choices. everything has an orbit of 3. travel the wheel and take yourself with you, as life goes around. you are fully there returning home to grow up from the spine.darkness is a womb, it appears as nothing but teaming with life. . over the weekend tala spent the night.. 4 years with marc we plan on iannucci's with uncle joe and lunch on the parkway. nadia is spending the night with my parents for the first time ever depending on what marcia needs.  i got medicaid back. mom and rob came over. mom bought a dress and wants more. she still sells greeting cards. we made a wrong turn and drove around ridgemont,  went to my fathers pizza and lake tomahawk.rob made boats to race with nadia we saw tons of different kinds of ducks and geese  and the moon during daylight. they said they'd like to come back, and try lake lure perhaps. of course i left my purse in their car. met mom and rob in fletcher and marc went out with the guys and open mic.

traveling treasures

We each have an inner spark and are made of one light. As it travels and we travel with it, we are changed by it. we can choose the change. some do not even see it because it pervades them.. We had christmas dinner at rosemary's with Matt, Uncle Joe, and Grandpa. Rosemary is such a good cook. show your love with your deeds and feed your family and that changes the world. controling yourself despite the situation you can not. give it to Allah. it was 2 years ago we lived there.Taz and Terra are both gone now. We found out Grandpa got depressed and has gout and stopped eating and the neighbors called the fire department to check on him and he was fine after he ate. Christmas Eve we drove down to Anderson and spent the night at matt's. Tim and Sylvia, and Mike and  Lynn  came. Christmas morning we drove back to nc and I got sick. I felt okay later and ate with dr vines and opal.
I connect and create with my own mind body and soul to people insha'Allah. it is Allah's Attributes and Actions, in orbit, ascending in bloom to be known. 2013 is the year of the serpent, apply what you know. the full moon in cancer tonight, open mic, help from ancestors  to heal and let go. When you watch a film it can change you, yet it remains apart from you.every time there is another layer to peel.  observe the creation drama, respond only with love.    you build it and it grows and you let it go..  Marc said the ghost of his grandma helped him get his guitar ready on stage.

winter solstice spring euinox

No more hiding. Break out in celebration, it's the galaxy's birthday. darkness recedes now. spiritual midwifery. red tent, crecent crab moon sea pearl. cultivating my own energy for this time means being more quiet and waiting for answers to come rather than seek them. there is a fire that burns though flame touched it not. the change comes when you master your gift self and embrace the shadow, that the world has molded you into, but is not true. You see the fire in you and do not seek it with the eyes. open to the unity of all things to give and receive. the new earth grows seed and kernel with your light. you see the unseen before it appears, at the source.
Allah reveals Himself when one surrenders their senses, Al mu’alim. Allah is in you, in creation, go in, thru and beyond. Layla is on the raido~Lailat Al Qadr. I  heard nadia’s cd player and it was sami yusuf try not to cry little one,. I imagined it as a message to her as a child who really did feel all alone, and then I was thinking of islam and muslims, as well as other religions with other followers, and how Allah reveals Himself thru them all,Allah made man into nations and tribes to teach them and show them the beauty of diversity and of His Creative Power, and that each separate religion ensured that they would all be guided, in one way or another, thru one message, one teacher, one book, or another, different because each human is different, yet all similar bc we are one soul, and seeing the jamal and jalal as a sign again from Allah from nation to nation that they each are both blessed and tried. 

phoenix

 I am going to be happy and feel good and put that first. If you can't meet me I won't go.Questions demanding answers have no space. I can not bend and break to fit. My darkest days have come, and I hope I can put myself together with Marc, without medication but it may come to that. Seeds sprout in the dark. Stars shine in the dark. Dark is calm and quiet, in the cave. The spiral is upwards. Number 9. Nadia's birthday party at Granny's had ernie, dianne, nina, mom, rob, granny, me and marc. she got a cool clock and a cute horse and we had cake and ice cream. Monday Marc called in and we drove down Brickyard to Tall Trees. Granny Nina and Ernie were there, we ate and got water.

I wanted to get out of Cali, so I can make the most out of being home again. But I have not made this my home yet.  I have been with Marc for 4 years, married half a year. Moving isn't always the answer, but I liked Hendersonville better and finally it is on the table. Lenon said his children orbit around him. I have never felt rooted or at home and just came into my body. it is going to be a one day at a time thing, to get body mind soul food shelter clothing family friends in order.