Thursday, December 30, 2010

change

2010 is near it's end. I must strive to remember that I am star dust, I am an Indigo Crystal Child, I am a Star Seed, I am a Light worker. I recently understood that I hold a lot of anger because I felt cheated out of childhood. I lash out at Nadia because I am disappointed in the world and in knowing from such an early age how umjust it was. However, now that Nadia is seven, I am seeing more of myself in her, and that we are growing together, healing together, loving together, that the home is the foundation of society and that if I can change what's in myself then I have the supreme achievement and there is definitely a butterfly effect that connects us all.
I wonder how to let go of anger at my country's leaders and the armed forces. Can I forgive them for what they do because I am not accountable for them? I have hopes and dreams and plans for things that are in my reach. Things beyond my control I can care about from time to time but not so that they are vampires.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

snowy xmas

There are three very special people I must give credit to. Crystal says she is an ex illuminati, that illuminati means "illuminate you". Atlantis and Lemuria and Kemet are all leading up to our even greater civilization, even through the dark and light duality. She saw me in King Arthur's court, my great grandfather was the old money and blue blood and my bloodline includes Sir Francis Drake who was a Draconian. The Draconians are Reptilians. Not all Reptilians are bad, they push us to be our best, when we are willing and able to take responsibility for our lives and realize that we are one and we are stardust. We can surpass the previous attempts at Enlightenment and are in the process of doing so and the tide is turning and we are reaching breaking point.
another special person is sunshine, she is a recovering MKULTRA survivor and she always puts her best forward with love and hope and inspiration, we are working together to create something superior to the new world order that will bloom and grow despite the illuminati.
another is peggy who saw in me her self a few year earlier and almost walked away until I told her that I am on the precipice of where she was.

christmas eve at rosemary's was cool, but christmas day snow trapped us here and we can't go to granny's as planned.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Down the Rabbit Hole

Today someone that I thought pretty highly of criticized me for researching conspiracies. I can certainly see where he is coming from, after all, we know that the life of this world is but amusement and sport, and the hereafter is what endures. However, I also find that the search for truth and the exposing of falsehood is a crucial element of the deen. Then there's the whole giving unwanted advice aspect. As Muslims we should be humble enough to admit when we're wrong and open to constructive criticism, yet at the same time, Allah knows a person's intentions, and there is a certain adab that goes along with naseeha. Muslims are all to ready to tell others what they should or should not do, I can see now the appeal of taking the path of Malamatiyya or the path of blame.
I battled greatly with my mood today. I lacked patience, I clung to anger. I can change the world and universe only by changing myself, the microcosm changes the macrocosm.

As Alice tumbles down the rabbit hole, she sees others around her unaware of their surroundings. She is only slightly ahead of them for she knows not where she is headed, only that she is headed somewhere. What can we know? Clues are all around us, hidden in plain sight. We must see with different eyes. Those who wish to remain blind are free to do so and we must give them that gift. Perhaps that is the friction we need within ourselves to remember how little we know. To think of ourselves as informed would be mistaken. To think that we can wake up another is wrong. We're all tumbling down the rabbit hole together, all we can do is smile and love eachother.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

there's a war on for your mind

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I have had this blog for quite a while and have not developed it much. I have trouble collecting and organizing and developing my thought processes into anything I feel worthy of presenting. I think this trait is peculiar to indigo and crystal and rainbow children. The infinite potential of the creative power when connected to the Source is the key to freedom. Those on the Dark Path know this and thus their battle field is the mind and heart of the people. This archetype has existed throughout the ages and now I see that as one of my roles here. I have consistently heard and internalized the message of inadequacy and of being broken. This is a concept that is not applicable to me and I am ready to shove it off. I see now the power in myself to change and control my own reality, and thus whatever I attempt will be successful. I may not see the result in my life time but my action was required to get there. Loving and nurturing and giving to myself is key to unlocking my true strength and to turning the tide. This is what many fellow humans suffer from today, they are told they are inferior to the elite and they believe it. They are content in slavery since they don't know what freedom means. It is better to fight for survival because then you are alive.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

explore

Today was great, Mom and Rob came over finally to see our house. She said it wasn't too bad of a drive and we shouldn't wait so long to get together. Unfortunately she told me some of my plants were dead and I should just throw them away. We went out for Chinese and then we went to Acoustic Corner. I thought Rob would play some guitar but he said he wasn't good enough. I got Nadia the wooden cricket instrument and then we went to Lake Tomahawk. I gave them an extra copy of Bill Still's "The Secret of Oz" and Mom said she heard his name before. We talked about Lemuria and Atlantis, and Rob said he is pretty sure there is so much the government knows that they don't tell us and I said we should be told because we can handle the truth. Now that I think of it, the issue is not really space travel or life on other planets, but rather astral travel and the all pervasive life that is within all creation, nowhere is far. The Center is everywhere.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Atlantis

The very notion of European colonists, or of Spaniards, sailing here to the New Land, so long ago, is baffling. What grand civilization and complex culture existed so long ago, and how did it begin and grow? would it be here today if it weren't for our intervention? It never stops it just changes platforms.
I don't think our education system wants us to absorb the experience as our own or identify with it. I think it is a key to our nation's identity and understanding itself and of growing if it can, or maturing if it can, if not it will contribute to it's decay. Did Atlanteans come to the United States over the Iberian Peninsula? There have likely been so many changes over time, in landscape and geography, in climate, ice ages, desertification, would this knowledge ever slip away from our grasp, would it be intentionally kept hidden, what is the state of the human race from it's start til now, have we been cheated of our true glory or has our development been altered from an outsider? Are we losing our true history through the genocide of the Native Americans?
The Earth has a rare combination of so many different forms of life and that is what makes it unique in the universe. What is it in man that has made him forgotten the balance and what will it take to remind him?

Monday, October 11, 2010

Ancient Civilization

I am so curious about Lemuria, Mu, and Atlantis. what kind of understanding did these humans have of their place in the universe? of time and space? If historians are so sure about the civilizations of Ancient Egypt, why do they continue to deny the others? Mainstream science is there to suppress the truth and ridicule those who want to bring light. There must be some event that puts certain people in charge, that gives some group an advantage, that the rest accept and go along with. One day humans must stand up and say no! The earth itself may balance herself soon, during a pole shift. There must be so much information and knowledge that those in charge conceal. Why have we been so deceived into buying the lable "national security"? Our nation is nothing but a corporation.
The search for truth must start within, the heart and soul will not misguide, while the senses deceive. I feel so sure that there is so much power in the brain and heart, that perhaps humans were meant to harness. If those civilizations were further along, and yet were destroyed, for the same reason that we face destruction now, then who were those that survived? Indigenous tribes, all over the world, may have this knowledge, that the white man wanted to destroy to retain power. The Hopi knew they were from Lemuria and used time travel. I want to study, explore and experience, what I know in my subconscious.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Ascension

Marc and I did an astral meditation together. It needs lots of time and practice to perfect, but we got a good start. Then we watched a video of The Little Grandmother, and I was really struck by her message. It's weird how I saw her in passing and never looked into her. When I finally did it spoke to me a lot. To connect with the Mother Earth, to love it, give back to it, nurture it, bring it back into balance, it will take care of itself and get rid of us if it wants to, and probably is. Chaos and war and debt, is really dissolving all differences and untiing us as a family of earthlings in Light. she talked about how important it is to love others, everyone, no matter how you think or feel about them, it is raising our vibrations to love eachother because we are eachother. So what is it to really be in tune with the light body, and astral travel, where you can enter and exit at will? I also thought today about if one is truly aware of their inner guide and trust their intuition that their angelic qualities would develop, and they would leave human traits behnd.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

autumn winds

This has been an enlightening year. I have found many truths in myself and in the universe. My bond with my daughter and my twin flame has grown. The pull of the darkness is much stronger now that I know what beauty the light manifests. It is a conscious choice to hold on, to stare that shaitan right in the face. Those doubts, those fears, those excuses, are all illusions I've grown tired of hiding behind. Whenever I gather up courage and step out onto a thin branch, the slightest breeze sends me back in fear. What is there to fear? I am already in chains. Those that can't be seen, within my very heart, they are the catalyst to push me forward.
That fighter I am, that I've forgotten, I will find again. Almost 30 years. Another trick is to make me criticize and doubt myself and put myself down, so that I do not know what I'm capable of. and since I am afraid to approach the horizon it remains a distant sight, or a thought, or word, not a manifest reality. Act it out. It is merely an archetype, a role. I am an observer. I kept viewing things from one perspective like a tunnel vision and starting from the same point so how far should I expect to progress? The truth is in Be Here Now. The truth is in Allah's Arms.