Thursday, August 23, 2012

wake up

Hey you. the true you. Allah has Purpose, Plan, Intent. He asks us first, intimately, directly. Answer the call. Get up when you fall. it is easy to say. yet that  is laying a foundation.Yes indeed, I will apply what I read.  choose success. do not just exist. Matter is energy in motion. We are created creators. The temple is  the soul-of-man. The beginning is being given to you. Darkness recedes, yet the world sleeps. what's in it for Allah? Our growth and potential, multiplier of blessings, written yet unseen. . Grab hold of His Rope, you will return home , and see. We asked for the knowledge and the experience but forget Allah, which makes us forget ourselves. Remember when all you knew was unity and see it unfold in creation. We don't yet know, but were created to know, through the experience when we were ready. Sell your cleverness and purchase bewilderment. Light upon light is remembering.
it is all about the action of creation, womb, mercy, birth, purity.Allah knows the secrets of the womb. the home and the family, is a noble battle, and the strongest weapon is love. the myth i tell myself is not how Allah sees it. He has a perfect plan. Do you trust Allah to wake  you up again? if you walk the path of shukr that is how you start the day. activate. participate. 

Saturday, August 18, 2012


coming going following chasing
a blank slate for you to create
something from nothing for the benefit  of all
build for  the sake of building

2.5 years at tall trees west henderson high
broke out and belonged
neil died, jeremy came back
once upon a time moody blues
Debbie Raymond Billy Friday
after we left Uncle david died
luke and terry died, jamie's a truther, david is married

east to west, mountains to city
culture shock happy new year
2.5 years engaged, savanna high
fullerton college, el camino college
joni turtle renee
career exploration, self disidentification
comparative politics
journalism, avtivism,  interpreter, nutrition, future yoga instructor

6 yrs married in gardena
dec starting from scratch a month at tt w/ debbie
jan first apartment patton st
upstairs twin flame first week
mirror kiss
olive gardens valentines day
fairview to black mtn
honeymoon chalet in may

Thursday, August 16, 2012

scooby doo van

yesterday i replied to a post on homesteading and survival of a soldier planting seeds with american soil in iraq, and said if he missed his soil go awol. the page owner called me names and i made a new friend out of it that also likes yoga. people are hypnotized by camouflage.  survival. threats, fear of death, hidden in plain sight my issue is i know my power and choose my reality. put my power in the right place so it effects change. Granny and Papa bought some land and it became Tall Trees. infinite potential and blessings. I guess now it's mostly between Marcia and Tom.
the world i want to create in my family and home and all of me into something that grows, really settling in black mountain. i have the information and knowledge , the grammar and logic, but i do not connect when i share ugly truth, it is conftontational, as compared to clinging to a friend in the past, which i miss. the warmth and inspiration is lacking
vivian saved 4 kittens Xel orphaned on the roof.  tiger  got kicked out for being mean to them. today we hung out with daniel and went to cracker barrell. it was nadia's first day in 3rd and she got the teacher she wanted. then evan and his dad dropped off the scooby doo van in our driveway. my favorite part is the signatures on the walls. marc chose my green candle to put in it. we may solarize it and put an oven and shower in it and have guitar classes in it.

Monday, August 13, 2012


I waited to the last minute to get a cab to yoga. That was a great lesson. I know what procrastination costs.  I missed last semester to push me harder this semester. It cost me $40. That was another lesson. Why fall back on the last resort? many obstacles are in  the mind. being aware of the mind's illusions and letting them go to yoke with your true self is yoga. the 8 fold path. A new word I learned there is kula, community. We could hear the Sourwood Festival outside, then a huge storm hit. A girl named Christine drove me home. She does a lot of yoga and has a son.
The next day we talked about injuries and yoga styles. Martia said to talk to Brad about tegretol. Marc and Nadia met me for lunch and i got pants at sourwood. Sunday we worked on alignment and shared lunch.  We started anatomy and physiology. after class brad told me some nerve endings were not formed and take minerals. The greatest part is returning to my body and teaching it. To be fully in it and love it. The red lotus opening