Tuesday, September 28, 2010


Marc and I did an astral meditation together. It needs lots of time and practice to perfect, but we got a good start. Then we watched a video of The Little Grandmother, and I was really struck by her message. It's weird how I saw her in passing and never looked into her. When I finally did it spoke to me a lot. To connect with the Mother Earth, to love it, give back to it, nurture it, bring it back into balance, it will take care of itself and get rid of us if it wants to, and probably is. Chaos and war and debt, is really dissolving all differences and untiing us as a family of earthlings in Light. she talked about how important it is to love others, everyone, no matter how you think or feel about them, it is raising our vibrations to love eachother because we are eachother. So what is it to really be in tune with the light body, and astral travel, where you can enter and exit at will? I also thought today about if one is truly aware of their inner guide and trust their intuition that their angelic qualities would develop, and they would leave human traits behnd.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

autumn winds

This has been an enlightening year. I have found many truths in myself and in the universe. My bond with my daughter and my twin flame has grown. The pull of the darkness is much stronger now that I know what beauty the light manifests. It is a conscious choice to hold on, to stare that shaitan right in the face. Those doubts, those fears, those excuses, are all illusions I've grown tired of hiding behind. Whenever I gather up courage and step out onto a thin branch, the slightest breeze sends me back in fear. What is there to fear? I am already in chains. Those that can't be seen, within my very heart, they are the catalyst to push me forward.
That fighter I am, that I've forgotten, I will find again. Almost 30 years. Another trick is to make me criticize and doubt myself and put myself down, so that I do not know what I'm capable of. and since I am afraid to approach the horizon it remains a distant sight, or a thought, or word, not a manifest reality. Act it out. It is merely an archetype, a role. I am an observer. I kept viewing things from one perspective like a tunnel vision and starting from the same point so how far should I expect to progress? The truth is in Be Here Now. The truth is in Allah's Arms.