Thursday, January 20, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
The times and places and people that shape your life from the outside never leave you. The reality of oneness is a boundless ocean. If you see yourself as separate, in the ocean, surrounded by the ocean, you will most assuredly drown. We descend from the Ocean of Allah's Mercy, to the ocean of the womb. The Earth is a womb as well. Our souls must operate in bodies with the Earth to complete the Universe's song. Things merely appear to join and separate from each other, but there is always a connection. What I perceive as missing or lost is not so, it is merely myself that has leered off the path. I know the way home, and it is only when I look away that I get lost. There is a harmony in the song that sings in me, along with all creation. When the song sounds a bit off it is my instrument that is out of tune.
Friday, January 7, 2011
It is snowing but not sticking. Nadia is on early dismissal and it is almost time to meet her. Once again I lost my temper and lashed out at her this morning. I see how the inner work that I do will affect my outer world, and that making our home a heaven is in my hands. I know the world is a brutal and also wonderful place and that we pass it on to the next generation, which is a much greater burden than most can grasp. Our differences are slowly falling away, as we learn about our mutual journey. Nurturing the mind body and soul along with the Earth is something that we are all called upon to do, and those that do not see its significance will be done away with.
The dark pushes the light, and then the dark passes away. All beautiful and tragic experiences help us grow to reach our full potential, once we realize that it is all meant to be.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Know that there is not one place or space that Allah does not see
Only He can hold you so intimately
There you must constantly retreat
in order that your weaknesses you may defeat
Once you discern the path you must tread
you walk to Allah with your heart, not your head
Saturday, January 1, 2011
I was not even awake when the New Year began. I thought it was interesting that the date is 1/1/11. I see that as a beautiful symbol of renewal and rebirth and beginnings. It's interesting how close the New Year is to Nadia's birthday and how much of a unique individual Nadia is becoming at age 7. We spent the day at my Mom's house. We looked at some of their books, one was an old Drumvalo book set. We talked about the world and government and conspiracies and what we could do to defeat the darkness. It was a great visit, ofcourse we had hoppin johns. Then we went to Granny's house for a while. I can't believe she still talks about moving out to Tall Trees. I thought about how she had devoted her life to loving and serving and giving and sharing to others and being so simple, such a rare find these days. After that we hung out with Daniel for a while. I loved being around Hendersonville, it was a little bit warmer than it has been and it was raining and most things were closed. Daniel was going through a tough time and felt the need to be alone. We watched Charlotte Iserbyt talk about Skull & Bones and I thought about how long these families have been directing our society, what obstacles we have to overcome to resent an alternative. I think about women I know that are fully centered and have their feet on the ground and are making a better world. I hae to remember thta is why I am here and can do. I know it starts with the self home aand family. Don't get distracted because thta is shaitan's trick, the vampires swoop in where there is no light.