Thursday, April 21, 2011
let the journey begin
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
remember
Friday, April 8, 2011
quest
Hers began
As all quests begin
How, a question beyond answers...
can one live in the now,
blocking out the pulling past and free falling future. that sounds so suffocating, maybe that is how i used to feel, but now...
i feel so connected
and grab hold to that veil
and tame it, grasp it, hold it down
if they're so distracted by its reflection
which must be oevercome,
to be able to READ Allah's signs
rather than just experiencing it,
submitting to it, surrenderign to it?
Don't miss the message to you
His Grace and Mercy and Blessings to you
and His Key to
Allah made the pen and told it to write.
on the preserved tablet
The Intellect, aql, reason, knowledge,
the pens are lifted and the ink is dried.
nothing is random
Where have I come from?
well, the moment that I forgot that I am merely an act of Allah,
and the ego descended to the level of duality,
I believed that I was of the world,
I believed that I was a child of my parents.
However, this was all part of the Divine Plan unfolding,
in this way, and only this way, could I have experienced, learned, what I did.
book notes
143 P in/organic WHAT IS LIFE, ENERGY, THE GRID?
148 P1 “it was so sad to be wiser than one’s nation…”
150 inequal
151 caussin “islam pol not spiritual
153 P1 repugnance vs. necessity
154 P1 annihilation, foundations of WS in
P2 no individuals
161 one = all, text over human
166 turjaman interpreter, intermediary, spokesman
168 hafiz
172 omar in
P2
177 preferred descriptions to eye and mind
bolsheviks
Social, economic and political unrest, high unemployment, and cost of living increases, low wages and increased debt. 1 million people go on strike. Troops sent out angered peasants and The army refused orders..the govt attacked
Saturday, April 2, 2011
stability
there's a balance between stability and change. One day at a time.
draft 1
the brainstorming and sowing the seeds. I have lots of good ideas. I have to believe in my ability to turn them into realities.
and the sowing of the garden is the editing, paying attention to details and placing value on my work.
2 distinct steps of a process. like the spiritual path, one must take the medicine given by the shaykh. One step towards Allah and He takes 10 steps towards you. Maybe, I am just overwhelmed by what that closeness will mean. closer than my jugular vein, in Allah's hand. it is more than ideas, thoughts what good is it if i simply write things down and don't read them. Allah created the intellect first and now I know why. It is because the Pen would write in the Lahw Mahfooz which is the soul, in order to be known, and read, because that is the first word revealed.
Words spoken, written, must be discovered, understood, returned to, explored gain and improve them, what value do they have? connect them, publish/share them...and above all, act on them, change my behavior, change my thought processes and my actions, towards what I know is best. If I don't learn from my mistakes I will keep making them. it's like nurturing a garden, aka jannah, if my niyyah is for Allah. I am molding clay, painting a portrait, i just have to really focus on that and remember it. Perhaps I am overly emphasizing on the abstract and not enough of the concrete.
distractions are from shaytan we give the most to what has the most value, and that makes us the ahlul akhirah. That is really what I want to be. Interesting, that my father has taken that step so early in my life, and that has influenced how I live my life here and my attitude toward the hereafter. Yet, again, what about the DEEDS? perhaps it is a combination of not having or knowing stability, and not having enough faith in myself, that prevents me from striving for success. However, that is just an excuse and I know much more stability than many people. I am a feather that has softly landed.
Friday, April 1, 2011
iran contra
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