Friday, July 18, 2014

solar return midway point

6 mths ago I turned 33. at that point nadia was in CA.
She just turned 11.
I have neglected my blog long enough. in 2 days I will be 33. Last month Nadia went to Cali to visit her dad, and I had a breakdown of sorts and went to stay at Tall Trees, hoping to come back to a happier home and marriage. Now it seems like moving forward into the new and unknown is the path I must make. Both Marc and Nadia are mad at me but I must put myself first and do what's best for me and not be swayed forever by others' opinions. I have less than a month to get things rolling and stop doubting myself and blaming the past. Only I know what I want and need and have to depend on myself more, something I have always struggled with.