I think so often of death, yet still fear much of life. Again this comes from the mind and not from love or creativity. What is life and death after all? Those are now meaningless dualities. If I struggle and strive then I will truly be alive. I have come to this place and time to play a role here on this planet and the universe. The struggle can not be denied, delayed, or neglected. Loving or hating the struggle doesn't even matter, for this is a stage one must go through to surpass.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
The wind carries me to and fro. As soon as I'm settled it picks me up again. It may seem haphazard, but it is not. Gazing upon the Beloved is the most sweet separation. Our souls are still echoing the call to the Divine. Some are sleeping deeply, some are stirring, and some have opened their eyes. It is a continuous circle of Creation. Whatever you turn away from follows you and returns. These dense bodies on this earthly plane deceives so many, as is part of the process. Our focus is constantly pulled this way or that. The experience of waking up and learning is both painful and beautiful. The speed and intensity of the inner pull is increasing. The challenge is what do we do once we've awoken? Nothing can compare to being there. When you just react and respond you lose touch with your potential and your purpose.
Friday, November 25, 2011
early Thanksgiving Day, there was a surge of dark or chaotic energy, and it must always be balanced with harmonic and centering energy, which we seemingly willed. We knew it would be okay in the end but the alchemy and magic necessary came through the chaos. Maybe like a healing from the pain of the genocide. Surrender to what is beyond your control while striving to perfect what is, in a new, true, way, today.
The madness of a lost society! I was able to make a joke to kim about pepper sraying at Wal Mart. I am making some good friends here in the mountains. The mountain girl is finding her tribe. It is a gathering of like minds and kindred spirits and higher vibrations. Danielle came to visit today.We both want to intentionally create and are shifting. I gave her a rose quartz. The weather was perfect. We hung out in the backyard and walked up to the Lodge. I know the neighborhood is great, yet I don't know many neighbors. It was different to tell a newer friend what I thought was possible here, and that I had been the feather softly landed for over a year. This is the 10 wave and they are faster and shorter each time. Time is shorter and faster and more intense.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
For quite some time I had been looking forward to 11/11/11. Intention is everything. If you believe in something you give it power. We go through lives believing things happen to us or we make them happen.
The obstacle or challenge is like a wall I build and hide behind.I have reacted to circumstances, and seen the difference when I made choices and acted creatively. The message of 11:11 is to pay attention and make a wish. Slowly but surely we are waking up to realize All mankind is on a journey together.
Each of us are taking unique paths along the way.We play a part and some do willingly and consciously. This is the stage of The awakening, the revolution, the ascension, all of it is beyond the beyond. There is no duality TO transcend. When you change the way you look at things the things you look at change.This is the moment for union.
The yoga class was great, I enjoyed Brad's presence and guidance. Yoga is something I have to do physically mentally and spiritually by myself for myself and I can share .yesterday Marc was off, we got oils at Smileys and we met Danielle and Tommye. Their house was fun, being there was like home. We called it Day 1. Tommye gave me an energy healing. Marc took Nadia and me to IHOP.
What magical beauty do I possess to make and create and express
from the gifts of experience I've
collected along the way?
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Allah's Light is revealed through the darkness of creation. The rise and fall of nations. the tests of loss of life and property, the blessings of love and light. we must face these opposites to see beyond them. Inside you is everything. There is a give and take, a push and pull when the infinite soul is confined to its earthly vessel. We are spinning and whirling through space and time as it bends and twists and folds in on itself. The echo of Be and it is, wraps us in a warm womb. I look back only for clues and for an understanding of what is happening now. No one and nothing is ever lost, but forever part of me. The battle is sure to be lost, if my inner eye is diverted. The true essence of me was present in this realm before my parents met. Then I had openness and trust to take on this challenge. The web interconnects us all so we can regain whatever part of ourselves we have forgotten, like an umbilical chord. The pain of separation is worth suffering through, to experience the reunion. We know what's missing and we know we're looking, that drive to actualize what you know within. There is hope and a reason to build our paradise here.
The good fight, the dance of polarities, until separation dissolves, is what I came for. I know that this realm is a reflection of eternity, and my challenge is Accepting and embracing without questioning. How do you plant a seed and care for it, and then when it blooms leave it? If you are fully conscious and present in what you do then you are not attached to the outcome but merely grateful to play a part.