bloom

intention is energy. creation is synergy. what power we have when we see ourselves as co-creators and making choices for a greater purpose. so many just swallow what is spoon fed, not aware of what is within them and all around them. they are takers and consumers and thus slaves. others refuse to accept and believe what is given and sustain themselves and others, centered and connected to mother, to gaia. a birth is a painful and beautiful experience.

draconian face the dark, acknowledge it, and create light. the womb is dark and protective but at a certain time the fetus bids it farewell. only those awake can create the new earth in 5d by connecting to themselves the earth and each other. alchemy requires us to shed the old and embrace the strange and unfamiliar. it is up to me, i have chosen it and have to embrace and live the butterfly effect.

tarot

Marc Nadia and I went to visit Linda and Mona. The drive wasn't bad at all, I hope we can come again soon. I was so glad to have my family with me there to connect with my friends. It was encouraging that so many like minds were getting togetgher. I thought about what we really have that is ours and what we can make or create and how to unite for solutions and waking up the sheep. I saw how it is all about being centered. The source is the center. We are all in a state of flux, everything is upside down, which allows for great potential. Linda hung out with Nadia for a while, playing cards and the rest of us went outside. Then we all played games and walked around. I got some oils and seeds from Mona and she gave me a tarot reading.

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Energy to strength. Look to that fight. Don't get into battles. Truce. Let go of expectations. Ego is the appreciation of what you have.

Libra (sep 23-oct22) change perspective

June 21 celebrate

I am protected

~Later I understood that battle or fight I need to avoid is with Israel and US military. then we can all ascend.

let the journey begin

my mom called and told me that Vickie passed away. she is the second of Granny's children to die before her. Granny worried so much about her. I told my mom that I was shocked she had lived that long. everyone was getting together a few days earlier and decided to invite Vickie so Andy went to her house. He knocked on the door and she didn't answer. He peaked in and could see her lying nude in the recliner and called 911. Mary's coworkers bought her a plane ticket and she is arriving today. Vickie's body will be cremated. She could have died from cirrhosis. Mary is leaving Saturday morning and the supposed gathering for Vickie/Easter was going to be Sunday before we got a hold of her. Hopefully we can acomodate her. we should not wait til funerals to visit eachother.

Of course, death is a doorway, it changes little. When we are not centered and connected to our inner selves and inner light then we are sucked dry by the gravity of this plane. Rather there is an ascension within us that awakens our true creator self with love first and foremost. just be love. it is not about the dual giving and receiving anymore, it is reflection and cocreation.

remember

cycles and spirals and layers shedding skin and transforming, ancient civilizations are alive in us, we are here now connecting to all other points in time space and dimensions beyond. Yesterday I went out to Tall Trees with Marcia. Steve talked about everything being a perception. I wonder who the true perceiver is. I wonder if we can alter perception and thus alter reality. As above , so below, we are the co creators that manifest Allah. Marcia talked about not caring about changing anyone or fighting against anyone but rather just loving people and helping them. As a draconian, the fight instinct in me is not in balance. I have fought to manifest here and now, and the message I get is that I can't forget what i've invested in, and what i've invested. If I can not remember then no one can.

as a wayfarer, as a sufi hippie mountain girl, a crunchy mama of the rainbow tribe, i connected with Liz, with Jolie, with Sefana, with my roots and the potential above. I have lost track of my center and have fallen into the victim role but I know the pain is the cure and that with Allah is the most firm handhold. Create love and healing, the infinite power that connects us all is a candle I light in me. the wayfarer seeks community everywhere, travels light and passes through. That is one reason I can let go. The sufi in me is for the gratitude and love. the hippie in me lives in balance with nature and creating a new culture. the mountain girl connects with the simple ways, the pioneering spirit and home roots that remain firm around all chaos.

quest

Hers began

As all quests begin

How, a question beyond answers...

can one live in the now,

blocking out the pulling past and free falling future. that sounds so suffocating, maybe that is how i used to feel, but now...

i feel so connected

and grab hold to that veil

and tame it, grasp it, hold it down

if they're so distracted by its reflection

which must be oevercome,

to be able to READ Allah's signs

rather than just experiencing it,

submitting to it, surrenderign to it?

Don't miss the message to you

His Grace and Mercy and Blessings to you

and His Key to Paradise He is giving you.

Allah made the pen and told it to write.

on the preserved tablet

The Intellect, aql, reason, knowledge,

the pens are lifted and the ink is dried.

nothing is random

Where have I come from?

well, the moment that I forgot that I am merely an act of Allah,

and the ego descended to the level of duality,

I believed that I was of the world,

I believed that I was a child of my parents.

However, this was all part of the Divine Plan unfolding,

in this way, and only this way, could I have experienced, learned, what I did.

book notes

143 P in/organic WHAT IS LIFE, ENERGY, THE GRID?

148 P1 “it was so sad to be wiser than one’s nation…”

150 inequal

151 caussin “islam pol not spiritual

153 P1 repugnance vs. necessity

154 P1 annihilation, foundations of WS in Asia

P2 no individuals

161 one = all, text over human

166 turjaman interpreter, intermediary, spokesman

168 hafiz

172 omar in Europe

P2 Liberty

177 preferred descriptions to eye and mind

bolsheviks

Social, economic and political unrest, high unemployment, and cost of living increases, low wages and increased debt. 1 million people go on strike. Troops sent out angered peasants and The army refused orders..the govt attacked germany and failed. Govt attacked demonstrators. Lenin went underground. Bolsheviks arrested and disarmed. Moscow went on strike. Moscow (komilov) troops moved toward Petrograd. (st. Petersburg) Bolsheviks united with Petrograd to defeat the komolov revolt. The red guard had the capital. Defeat weakened counter revolutionary group. Soviets of Petrograd and moscow joined Bolshevik insurgents. led to an Armed insurrection (October Revolution) in 1917 overthrew Russian provisional govt gave power to soviets, mostly Bolsheviks. Followed by Russian civil war and the creation of soviet union in 1922. Bolshevik red gaurds took over govt buildings,uprising in st. Petersburg, Petrograd, almost bloodless revolt. The new govt was declared. Then opposition parties were arrested. Cheka was created by decree of Lenin. Legalized the seizing and redistributing of Russian land, representing “an alliance of workers and peasants”. Banks nationalized, factories given to soviets, private bank accounts and church assets seized, wages raised, work day shortened, foreign debt absolved. Bolsheviks easily seized more power of Russia, but not nonRussian areas. Ukraine independent from Russia. Estonia independent 1918. oct. revolution socialized Russia. Civil war against Bolsheviks from 1918 to 1922. 1^st communist govt that led to USSR. Europe recognized new govt and did business in the 20s. usa recognized govt in the 30s. USSR from 1922 to 1991.